1/2 of a year old.

How in the world did I birth this baby 6 months ago.

This little boy has literally transformed me into a complete mush of a human being. Those chubby cheeks get thousands of kisses each day. He is the most chill little boy and I am so happy to be able to spend so much time with him. I am trying to savor every second of the cuddles because I know one day he won’t need or want mommy as much.

These last 6 months have been the hardest but also the best months of my life. You literally give up EVERYTHING after you have a baby. My getting ready routine is down to a productive and rushed 10 minutes. I have perfected the athleisure wear look. But I also feel like I have had somewhat of an identity… hm not crisis… more of a predicament. I never know what category I belong in, stay-at-home mom vs working mom. I work per diem and right now I like the balance and flexibility it gives me. K isn’t the best (HORRIBLE) at taking a bottle so I haven’t taken any long shifts because, well mom-xiety. I know so many moms go back to work full time and I literally give them/you so much respect because it is hard to leave your baby. BUT in the same breath it is HARD to be a stay-at-home mom. Your day revolves around your child. I never understood women who said, “I didn’t have time to shower today”. Like really, how is that possible. Oh. It is. This guy has recently sprouted some teeth and he has been like VELCRO. It’s not that I don’t have time to shower, but a 1 minute 20 second shower while I sing to my child through the shower curtain does not sound appealing. SORRY TARGET deal with my un-showered self thank you. I’ll shower after baby bedtime with my shower glass of wine. (Is that still allowed after college years? Asking for a friend).

Even though my personal hygiene isn’t what it was, I wouldn’t give up this life for anything.

Motherhood has been amazing, challenging, and fulfilling. Nursing school…running a marathon… yes, you have been challenging too. But motherhood? 100% the most challenging, BUT you have been such a blessing and have brought me immense happiness. I wouldn’t change a thing.

I know this post was a mush-fest and sentimental BUT…

Anyone playing the lottery?? 1.6 billion… seriously??? Yes we bought tickets. CAN YOU IMAGINE. May the odds be ever in your favor.

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